I am prowling the kitchen agitated. Home late from work, school event from 6 - 7pm, quick groceries shop in a empty shopping center (as everyone else is at home), then home. It is late, dinner preparation time is long over, so toasted chicken and salad sandwich was decided as a sensible healthy quick fix for all. Now I'm stressed and wanting some soothing. I'M STILL HUNGRY. My son has a chocolate bar in the fridge which is for school - can't eat that; there is flat sparkling wine in the fridge from visitors on the weekend - I put that down the sink; spotted the raisin bread crusts left over from breakfast on the bench - my hand reaches out for it and then I remembered what this is - I'm having a mental event. This hunger is above the neck so I've come here to type to get out of that kitchen. Thanks for reading, the moment has passed. I can now go back to the kitchen to clean up and stay 'clean'. :)
Leinie's 12WBT journey. For years I have stopped being, stopped laughing, stopped singing, stopped dancing ... stopped living. My world has shrunk, my mind has been clouded in fog and my body, gross and bloated, has reflected my internal state of despair. 2013 will be 10 years too long in this states. Therefore I'm committed to laugh, sing and dance the next new year in, as the best version of myself that I can be. I made that commitment 1/1/2012. Look out world - I'M COMING BACK.
So proud that you got through a binge attack!!!! A good secret weapon when you have to eat something that is not as satisfying as your 'should have' meal would have been, to eat it very, very slowly so your brain can catch on to the fact that your tum is satisfied. I can ALWAYS tell you how to do it, but don't always do it myself!!!
ReplyDeleteOo that's such an awesome idea! I just had dinner..but feeling stressed about the study I have to do tonight, went back for a tiny seconds..then a tiny third..ofcourse not hungry but was too having a mental event haha. Wish I had read this first!!
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